Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Again? Already?

So my head is spinning. Is yours? How does this happen to me every year and yet I am so surprised when it does? DECEMBER. Efff.
This month I received a promotion at work where all of a sudden the expectation is that I will stay late at the drop of a hat. umm okay??? Who will pick Piper up from school? This is a very hard thing for me to arrange as I have nearly over stretched every resource I have to be able to work. I am still in the process of getting state sponsored respite care. I am not sure how I am going to pull this off, yet I don't really have any other choice. I need this promotion. I have to provide. It's just me, I am all she's got. Pie's Dad is on the downward spiral (hitting bottom soon?) currently living in his van somewhere in California. Yeah. It's like that. Nice huh? I don't resent it one bit, nu-uh, not at all. (You can smell the sarcasm can't you?) So I am totally alone, no local family support. This is really by design though and the life I chose. My family is cuhrazy and not the harmless kind. I wanted to move and raise my child away from any chance of daily contact with 'em. Pie's Dad's family isn't much better. So here I am, raising a kid with Autism alone. We have a network of friends/support. The friends I've made here in my souls home are  loving and supportive, but they are friends. This isn't their child. This isn't thier fight.

I am taking off a week of work (thankfully paid) because I don't have care for Pie during the school closures. I am optimistic that I might survive! I can only hope with the constant supply of homemade treats and new toys to perseverate over will prevent her from eating my mind alive. My roommate and her daughter ( K  and R) are leaving for the week so it will be just me and Pipes. This is good and bad. What if she likes it so much she tells them to go away when they come home? Heck, she's done that before after they were gone overnight! What the heck will we do? How am I going to keep this kid occupied 24/7? Merrr....

Also, she hates that I go to work. She declares "tomorrow is no school, no work, and just Mommy and Piper".  Geez kid cut my heart out why dontcha? Taking the week off will only reinforce that. What's a gal to do?

I sing the A-team theme to myself. What? Don't judge. You have thinking music too. Don't you?

Meh. I will do as I always do. Make it work.


  1. I can't imagine how you make it work, but maybe I can learn from you? My wusband is similarly on a downward spiral, and I keep waiting for him to hit bottom. Yikes!

    I hope Piper doesn't eat your brain. That would be a real shame for your readers!

  2. I have to say I'm curious myself how I make it work. I think we can learn A LOT from eachother.

    I think I have planned just the right amount of activity/downtime for the break there's hope for my noggin yet!