Piper want's a VW camper van (like Daddy's) for our summer's camping excurssions.
I am taking a Zumba class.
It's raining today, of course.
The bush on the other side of the crosswalk outside Piper's school has 139 berries.
We will be taking another route to avoid the daily counting of the berries on said bush from now on.
We have a re-eval IEP in a few short weeks.
Piper mistakenly called me Daddy the other day and it hurt my feelings.
Piper said she wants to start a reptile collection.
I am not really fond of reptiles.
Spicy dark chocolate is a gift from the gods.
Claire Danes is starring in an HBO movie about Temple Grandin.
I am struggling with the mess I've been left to clean up by Jerkwad.
La la la la la
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
The Light Around Her
I heard an old favortie song with a new perspective this weekend. A song that for me had always been about romantic love was transformed into a song about my daughter, Piper. Like it was written for her. I found myself weeping at the truth of it, overcome.
She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
but I know that I can't live without her
She's got a way of pleasin'
I don't know why it is
but there doesn't have to be a reason anyway
She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know what it is
but I have to laugh when she reveals me
She's got a way of talkin'
I don't know why it is
but it lifts me up when we are walkin' anywhere
She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me and I get turned around
She's got a way of showin'
How I make her feel
and I find the strength to keep on goin'
She's got a light around her
And everywhere she goes a million
dreams of love surround her everywhere
She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me, I get turned around oh oh oh
She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know why it is
but I have to laugh when she reveals me
She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
but I know that I can't live without her any way
- Billy Joel
She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
but I know that I can't live without her
She's got a way of pleasin'
I don't know why it is
but there doesn't have to be a reason anyway
She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know what it is
but I have to laugh when she reveals me
She's got a way of talkin'
I don't know why it is
but it lifts me up when we are walkin' anywhere
She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me and I get turned around
She's got a way of showin'
How I make her feel
and I find the strength to keep on goin'
She's got a light around her
And everywhere she goes a million
dreams of love surround her everywhere
She comes to me when I'm feelin' down
Inspires me without a sound
She touches me, I get turned around oh oh oh
She's got a smile that heals me
I don't know why it is
but I have to laugh when she reveals me
She's got a way about her
I don't know what it is
but I know that I can't live without her any way
- Billy Joel
Monday, March 1, 2010
The Date Dish
The date went well, but no fireworks. I did really well with the talking and kept up my side of the conversation. It was fairly easy since he talked about himself almost exclusively. It was hard for me to interject and he seemed to not mind that one bit. It's probably for the best though because it kept me from pontificating about Piper and how facinatingly adorable she can be. He asked me out for a second date and the event did end with a kiss but as I've said no butterflies and no fireworks.
I've decided not to go on date # 2. I recognize he is the kinda guy who needs a mommy and I've done this style of relationship before with little sucess. It's not what I'm looking for this time around. It's less than I deserve and certainly less than Piper deserves. I'm proud of myself for seeing this for what it is right away instead of needing to learn the hard way.
No SHIT! Did I actualy lean somethign from my past mistakes? Is this a sign of healthy thinking?
Hmmm....
I've decided not to go on date # 2. I recognize he is the kinda guy who needs a mommy and I've done this style of relationship before with little sucess. It's not what I'm looking for this time around. It's less than I deserve and certainly less than Piper deserves. I'm proud of myself for seeing this for what it is right away instead of needing to learn the hard way.
No SHIT! Did I actualy lean somethign from my past mistakes? Is this a sign of healthy thinking?
Hmmm....
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
!!!!!!
I have a date tonight. My first one in 10 years. Gosh, I hope I remember how to talk to men......
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Meltdown Monday
One of Pie's favorite books of the moment is titled "Mixed up Monday". It's a ESL tome aimed at helping children who primarily speak Spanish understand some of the nuances of the English language. Guess what? It helps my kid with autism understand those nuances too! Our wonderful Librarian Miss N suggested it and Piper has lovingly scripted it and made it part of her daily vocabulary. The book features the members of a family accidentally receiving the wrong bags at the start of thier day and in turn they each have the wrong supplies for participating in thier preffered activity. Their things are all mixed up! One of the girls ends up with her sisters swim suit instead of her dance shoes. The book illuminates how it is possible to make the best of what you've got by using creative problem solving. There are loads of opportunities to create a conversation with your child using the book as a foundation. Wonderful!
This book showed up in our life in a rather ironic way yesterday.
We had a Meltdown Monday.
Piper is usualy quite easy for me to navigate. Sure, I've had my moments. Haven't we all? I have learned from those times past though and I have a TON of patience which really helps. I have been at this for several years and Piper has really progressed. I am not a superwoman, I just know my child very well and I do my best to steer and guide her through the landmines life loves to lay in her path. It is not possible every time, as you know, but I succeed most of the time. Which makes it harder when it bites me in the arse. Ouch.
It began with a little thing, as it always does. A forgotten toy. A rushed exit. A rushed parting of ways. No going back. We must accept the toy is left and begin anew. Move on. Can you see where this is going?
MELTDOWN
We were out in public of course. I carry screaming Piper a block to get her in the car where she can rage safely. She yells "get away from me" which is disconcerting to passersby as they think something is amiss. This is when I wish for a sign on a stick, like a protester; "My Child is having a Meltdown, Bring Liquor". We sit in the car for what feels like forever and she is lost, inconsolable and out of reach. She finaly calms enough for me to drive. I start the car and drive a few blocks and she begins screaming with renewed vigor so I pull over. Next, I do what I am not proud to admit, I lose it all over her there on the side of the road. Ugg. We are both yelling and I tell her I am sick of this crap and she has to calm down. I just want to go home. Yeah, great parenting. I should get an award huh?
We're finaly calm enough to finish the drive home, both of us red faced and blotchy from crying.
Piper says, "It was a mixed up Monday".
Indeed.
This book showed up in our life in a rather ironic way yesterday.
We had a Meltdown Monday.
Piper is usualy quite easy for me to navigate. Sure, I've had my moments. Haven't we all? I have learned from those times past though and I have a TON of patience which really helps. I have been at this for several years and Piper has really progressed. I am not a superwoman, I just know my child very well and I do my best to steer and guide her through the landmines life loves to lay in her path. It is not possible every time, as you know, but I succeed most of the time. Which makes it harder when it bites me in the arse. Ouch.
It began with a little thing, as it always does. A forgotten toy. A rushed exit. A rushed parting of ways. No going back. We must accept the toy is left and begin anew. Move on. Can you see where this is going?
MELTDOWN
We were out in public of course. I carry screaming Piper a block to get her in the car where she can rage safely. She yells "get away from me" which is disconcerting to passersby as they think something is amiss. This is when I wish for a sign on a stick, like a protester; "My Child is having a Meltdown, Bring Liquor". We sit in the car for what feels like forever and she is lost, inconsolable and out of reach. She finaly calms enough for me to drive. I start the car and drive a few blocks and she begins screaming with renewed vigor so I pull over. Next, I do what I am not proud to admit, I lose it all over her there on the side of the road. Ugg. We are both yelling and I tell her I am sick of this crap and she has to calm down. I just want to go home. Yeah, great parenting. I should get an award huh?
We're finaly calm enough to finish the drive home, both of us red faced and blotchy from crying.
Piper says, "It was a mixed up Monday".
Indeed.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Groundhog's Day
I celebrated my 8th wedding anniversary this week. Goundhog's Day 2002. Ironic? Yes. I didn't celebrate it as an anniversary. It's our first year apart leading seperate lives. So what does a newly single lady do on her first wedding anniversary as a unmarried lady? Eat bacon.
I'm not sure what inspired me to eat bacon as a clelebration but it seemed fitting. I invited over some of my close friends (there were 5 of us) and we had a bacon party. Everyone made a dish and there was even bacon chocolate cake (delicious). Piper even ate some!
I din't cry or invest in any sad feelings. I celebrated and enjoyed myself with people who love me and treat me well. What a difference a year can make.
I'm not sure what inspired me to eat bacon as a clelebration but it seemed fitting. I invited over some of my close friends (there were 5 of us) and we had a bacon party. Everyone made a dish and there was even bacon chocolate cake (delicious). Piper even ate some!
I din't cry or invest in any sad feelings. I celebrated and enjoyed myself with people who love me and treat me well. What a difference a year can make.
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